This HAS to STOP!!!

Why do I keep doing this to myself??? I keep putting myself in a place that can only harm me!!! I just want to get better!! In the Last 24 hours I realized that things that I have been staying could be harmful to those around me and myself. The last thing I would to do is hurt anyone around me. I really hate the idea of hurting anyone. So I really am not sure who long this change i s going to take but I am going to!!

Something has to change!! I never wanted to hurt anyone in my life. In the future I hope I stop hurting people but I know it will take a while for things to deminish. I want to stop justifying my behaviors to those that I do not need to be justifying them to. I feel like I am always on my guard when I amy not should be.

I started my new job today and loved it. Thing were fast paced and people looked up to me. Liked interacting with others all day. this was so much fun. Great!!!

LOVE !

ASh