Through the Tough

You Know even tough things have been tough this week I keep getting reminded that God is #1. But that is hard at times to keep doing and keep going to him with everything. In my last blog I was talking about trust that same day I picked up a book called truefaced. It's about trusting God and showing your True face to God and those around you. I have not gotten very far in this book but it really is going to be good.

You God has a plan right now I feel as if I keep fighting with him at times. With my eating disorder I just feel like I'm caught in a loop that is so hard to get out of. I keep saying I give it to him but then I think about it and I have taken back the control.

Next fall I will be at Grace university a place that they will keep me even more accountable then Northwest Missouri. Is so many ways, reading the word of GOD, and my actions. I excited and nervous for this at the same time for this. I can't wait to keep learning about him and his grace. I will be majoring in Psych.

Bless all that read!!! :)

-Not Very Sure-

I'm not very sure where I am headed in life. Most days I feel like i am lost in a land that I do not even know. I keep looking around and wondering if I am headed in the right direction. I feel the only thing I can do is pray that I am lead in the right direction. Trusting God and others has never been a strong point of mine. I am working on it but it's hard for be... I'm learning that the more I work on it I can start to do it. It is just that so many people have stabbed me in the back and lied to me in the past. I'm always on my guard and watching out for those who I need to be looking out for. I can me hard at times.

It always take a while for me to let someone into my life. If I let someone into my life they still have to "earn" another level of trust. I know some of this may not make much sense. But it is just how I feel. Not many realize how their Lies can really hurt other. So next time you try to talk behind some ones back or lie to that persons face just makes sure it is worth that relationship. Ask yourself do you really want to hurt this person?

-Ash-