Hop * Skip * Jump to Pella Iowa

At the start fo this weekend I was not really sure what I was going to be doing. I knew this weekend had to be something that I would remember. Of course on Memorial Day weekend, the unofficial start of summer, most people go to the pool and camp out. I did not want to do what most people where doing. Also I really did not want to get into a bathing suit nor did I want to get bit and burn to te crisp. The orginial plan was to relax before classes starting for the summer. My mom got some fresh tuna for us to put on the grill. She knows that tuna is something I really will eat. But then the plans changed. After taking my roomies out for dinner I HOPPED on facebook and saw that one of my friends, who was only a SKIP away, did not have any big plans also. The plans changed for me. Insead of going to my mom's I decided that I would JUMP into my car the next day and go to PELLA to see my friend. That is when I made my HOP, Skip and JUMP to Pella.

I had never been to this town and was not very sure what to expect while I was driving there. When I got there I was yet not into town and thought things where a little funny. I did not know how much of a DUTCH town Pella is. So as I continue to get into town I see more and more evidence of all of this. As you drive around you can find windmills that still work. May I let you know these Windmill are not what we think of here in a farming area. Also the structure of the buildings was very much Dutch. WOW, is all I can say.

So I get to my friend Jodi's and she show's me around town. At this time she learns just how much of a goff I am when I try to Set off the cannon...

Little did I know that it was firing BLANKS!!

I am stil aloud to go to Pella but I'm not sure if i can fire that cannon. They may not be very happy with me...

I did enjoy the quality time I had with my friend Jodi and the project we did together. It took us hours to complete but we got it done. This was a week of enjoyment and fun. Now I'm home and I have to return to my life of CRAZYNESS. So much to do. I have to make appointments that I really do not want to go to at times. But I want to LIVE my life to the fullest. After the weekend I just had I want to be around to some day dance in wooden shoes there in PELLA. But I can't do so if I do not take care of me...

What do you want?? What do you want to do next in life??? Can you keep doing by the way that you are living?? Are you seeking the guidence of the people with whom you need or do you look at other things??

All hard questions but things We all need to stop and ask our selfs as we take this HOP, SKIP, and JUMP into summer...

My eyes got OPENED!!!

So within the last week I have found out that 3 of my really good friends are not doing very good. For some of them it has been going on for a while, but I have been so wrapped up in myself that I have not seen what has been going on around me. All three of these friends are struggling pretty bad with a mental illness. All have relapsed. Why have I have looked this? Am I a bad friend? I really care about all 3 of these girl equally and love them with so much of my heart.

This is teaching my that when I'm caught up in my ways of ED and the world I don't stop to be a friend to those I care about. I hate it when I do that. I want to stop being a bad friend. I want to stop being so self centered and start looking helping others even more. that is what life is about right helping those around us. I do not think anyone knows what life is about.

(this came to me in my car)

thanks for reading!!!

--Growing Up--

(we are acting like gangsters {Im in purple})

Last night I want to a great End of year BBQ and on the way home I was thinking about how much I have grown up this last year. Just is this last year so much has happened. In short I almost died but now I have a great relationship with God and more people around me. Alot of you do not know what I may be talking about but I think it's time to talk about the foggy memories of that night.

(this is my GAL friend and me in the black)

If it was not for the quick actions, of a good GAL friend, and sister in christ I may not be here today. I had a medication interaction, that is still being misunderstood. The medication caused me to stop breathing. I ended up having to take a helocpter ride, that I still do not remember. I did not wake until a couple days later because with tubes in me.

Since then I have been taking my classes back here in Nebraska. I still go to my college I just can live there. I really have learned so much from the people there. In the Fall I will not longer be there will be going to a Christian College. I very excite to keep learning and growing.

As far as my eating disorder... After the near death experience I have lost quite a bit of weight I do have some people in my life a little worried because I have relapsed. I really do know want to hurt any I love my family and friends so much.

This is only the small part of my picture!!